Wednesday, April 21, 2010

the fear

Sometimes, you have to reach really deep into the hidden places of your heart and find your piece of mind. Too often we cover up our hearts, minds, and emotions by fear and anxiety. You cover up your own unique abilities with self-conscious thoughts that say "you should just hold back" because clearly no one can be confident ALL the time. The fear creeps up on you and fills your lungs leaving you short of breath and at a loss for words.

I can't live like this. Self induced paralysis is the most preventable disease a human can keep out of their system. I read everywhere about "living in tension" because it causes your heart to fight for truth. It causes your mind to question, to observe, to rise above the temporary struggles.

Keep fighting! Keep searching! I find myself screaming this inside my head. I am responsible. Not just for myself but for the encouragement of others. So I really can't backdown now.

Even at the silliest times I take the words of Dory the fish in Finding Nemo, "just keep swiiiimming!" ha. Oh my tangents and childlike mind, it won't ever stop.

Maybe this blog is really just for me, but I'm sharing it to whoever comes across it.

3 comments:

Tyler said...

Glad i came across it...

Email:jray1986@yahoo.com said...

thank you.

e_v_thomas@hotmail.com said...

you are so cool! sometimes i want to be you. :)